Jumbled

I don’t know if normal people feel jumbled, but it is pretty common for survivors.  I feel like I’m blowing my “lighter” week when I am not in groups.  I had things planned.  Lots of things.  And then… Well, one obstacle after another, not to mention parts and processing.  Then the feeling of moving through quicksand.  It feels impossible.  Does one ever get caught up?

Maybe you can relate.  I started journaling about this and felt True FAMILY said to rest.  Hmm… that feels like more wasted time.  But They do know a lot so…

I did.  And guess what?  I do feel better.  Things are clearer.  I can do this with Them.  They asked where my focus was.  Well, I guess it’s been on the problems I’m trying to overcome.  Computer issues.  Slogging through minutia.  Daily tasks.  Will it ever end? 

Then I remember.  True FAMILY do have help available.  Right here.  Right now.  I can breathe, rest, be refreshed when I remember who I am and why I am here.  It matters.  Even the little things.  But I am not alone.  And neither are you.  You are seen, heard, known and understood.  Just lift your eyes up and see Them smiling at you.  Singing songs of love over you.  Even dancing with joy.  This is where I want my attention.  It gives me strength to keep on and do the little tasks and big ones. 

When you feel jumbled, muddled, slogging through, remember.  There is a way through.  You are not alone.  There is hope.  And True FAMILY can redeem the time.  Let’s do this together!