When if Doesn't Feel Good

It doesn’t sound like a great title after our honeymoon, but I want to address things that come up even when we “should” be having a good time.  For the life of a survivor, memories coming up do not wait for a convenient time.  But we can find grace with True FAMILY to walk through them. 

I so enjoyed our honeymoon on the road.  I love to travel and see new places and I especially love the beach!  It felt so relaxing to just be and enjoy the water and sun and sand.  The camper that Ken built is amazing and though very cozy, it is compact with everything needed.  Learning all the set-up and tear down needed to move from campsite to campsite was new for me and at times challenging, like how to direct Ken in backing up the camper into a spot when I am directionally challenged.  Whew!  We made it through. 

And things surfaced.  Unexpectedly.  Emotions.  Memories.  At inopportune moments.  Really God?  Yet, I know this is part of the journey.  I am so grateful for Ken’s patience and grace with me and that I can be honest with him.  It felt crazy to be crying on our honeymoon when everything was wonderful.  And a little angry at God for allowing things to surface during this time.  And yet, I know They work all things together for good.  So I choose to be held safe in Their arms of love.  I choose to face hard things and find that I can get through them. 

Wherever you are on your journey, God is there.  Step by step.  Never leaving us, never failing Us.  Consistent in Their love.  My prayer is that in the ups and downs of life, you find the courage to know you are loved always and that there is a way through even in the dark times.  No matter what!

By the way, we are still on the road!  We decide to extend our time away, even though I am working full time (which has proved to be a challenging with finding consistent wi-fi available!).  Ken had promised his step-daughter to finish a building project that was interrupted by his cancer journey and this gave time for him to complete this before winter for her.  We also have a conference we are going to in November.  So instead of making multiple trips out and back, it made more sense to stay on the road… so here we are!