Most of us feel that we don’t want to bug someone or feel we aren’t worthy of their time when we need help or are in distress.  This tends to keep us in isolation as we try to work out things on our own.  This isn’t how God created us to be.  He created us as relational beings – to connect and to give and receive life from each other.  This is part of what gives life meaning.

In some older blogs, I shared a bit about our group identity statements, a reflection of who we are as a community. It’s been a while and I don’t think I shared them all together. So I’m posting them now as a reminder of who we are seeking to be as we do life together.

I was reminded today about relational circuits.  This is a metaphor that is used in the book, “Escaping Enemy Mode” by Dr. Jim Wilder and Ray Woolridge regarding how God created our brain to be relational, but we can “dim” or turn off the switch.  What happens when we do?  We stop being relational.   We go into reactionary mode.  We lose creativity.  We get stuck. 

“He called a little child to him, and placed the child among them.  And he said: "Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven.” Matthew 18:2-3 NIV  Have you ever wondered what Jesus meant by these words?  As I have been contemplating maturity levels taught by Dr. Jim Wilder and that we teach in Transformations Community, could this be referring to one of the first tasks of infant and children to just receive?

I understand.  This journey isn’t easy.  Even if you aren’t a survivor of complex trauma, life can be challenging.  Often how I’ve coped with this is giving it to True Jesus.  Overwhelming emotions.  Painful situations.  Sometimes things we can’t even verbalize.  Hopeless despair. 

Our leadership team has been discussing lately group dynamics in Transformations Community.  We have the curriculum and group time.  How do we combine learning the material with processing life together?

I had a meltdown this week.  It wasn’t pretty.  I was surprised as I had been feeling pretty good, but it was a cascade of things that triggered – small things that snowballed.  I was hysterical.  It was embarrassing.  It happened during a prayer session with Jo.  Ken was with me as usual.  I wondered if they would still love me after falling apart so badly. 

I had a really difficult memory come in last night.  I’m grateful for dissociation that was able to keep the emotions in another place because the visual was very difficult.  I shared it with Ken and he was comforting and encouraging me and suggesting that I see where True FAMILY were in the scene. 

A friend and I were discussing world events recently and end-time cult programming and she said something so insightful.  “Fear triggers end-time cult programming.”  What a set up!  Who isn’t afraid when we see the news or hear reports of what is happening?

I want to share a portion of my journaling from this weekend when I faced some difficult memories.  I was feeling overwhelming emotions and, in the past, would just stuff and dissociate.  But True FAMILY have a different way.  “We can keep you in perfect peace. That is crazy!  You can’t do that.  (Automatic response from some parts) We can and are. 

In this week’s Testimony Mountain, I share about a recent difficult session I had with my prayer minister, Jo Getziner.  There was much redemption in it and a demonstration of the power of True Jesus that I wanted other survivors to see and understand.  To me, this is the joy set before us.  Even in the midst of horrible things we experienced, True FAMILY have a way of restoration. 

With scandals being exposed in the church and the Epstein files, it can feel pretty depressing, depending on the way you look at things.  A passage that has always intrigued me is from 2 Peter 3:12, 13 NKJV “looking for and hastening the coming of the day of God, because of which the heavens will be dissolved, being on fire, and the elements will melt with fervent heat?  Nevertheless we, according to His promise, look for new heavens and a new earth in which righteousness dwells.”